Wandering

Anyone ever get the feeling that its time to get the heck out of dodge? Has anyone ever felt that yearning to pack up and go somewhere that you have never been? I am not talking about a quick little trip either. I'm talking about a radical move to somewhere else. A complete paradigm shift, lifestyle change, change is scenery whatever you wish to call it.

I am feeling that way right now. I woke up this morning and I had to fight the urge to pack up my family and head north, or south, east, maybe west. I really wish I could. It's not that I do not love NWA or Arkansas for that matter. I do. But maybe I have worn out my welcome here. I dunno. I really feel isolated among friends, and family. I long for the simplistic life of no attachments, or obligation. I realize I am dreaming. I have obligations. Or do I? I can take my son, and my wife anywhere I go. I feel one with them as I should. There is a point of creation that this movement is originating from. It could be my Savior. Yahweh is mine, and I am His. He is always with me. I feel as though this feeling, yearning, or stir of my soul is from Him. Part of me longs to stir the pot in NYC. Another part of me wants a mountain existence. SO it could be that wandering spirit that lives within me. Constantly pushing me. Reminding me that I do not belong here. What do I do?

I am listening to Billy Bragg and the Jayhawks send my soul into a comfortable restlessness. Yeah, I think that I need to make my way somewhere. Not talking about roots. Although that would the sensible thing to do. Well if anyone reads this, cool. If not then at least my therapy session is proving profitable within me. I'm out of here kids. Talk to you soon. The yearning continues.

First Day

Well here we are, I begin what will be my last year at NWACC. I am ready to get this done. Next year its off to Arkansas Tech for my Public Relations B.S. I have some great classes this semester like Film Arts, American National Government, Macroeconomics, and Sociology. I am still in SIFE, and have become a reporter for the "Eagle View" which is the paper for NWACC. I am really looking forward to dabbling in some journalism. I have already started my first article. All this is cool, however, my son began his last year in elementary school last Wednesday. Although that does have an element of excitement to it I do feel a sense of sadness. Next year he will be in middle school. I knew when we adopted him at the age of 9 that things would move a lot faster than if we had adopted him at age 3. Anyway all that to say that I am incredibly blessed to have the opportunity to finish my education. My blessing are many. My son, my incredibly wonderful wife, my family (both sides), and my authentic church family. With all of the firsts that my family and I are experiencing these days one thing remains constant and unchanging.

That one thing is the love that my Savior has for me ,and for us! He never gets tired of loving us even with our our sinful shenanigans. "For God so loved the world..." we have all heard it many times. But folks, its still true! Its still valid, trustworthy, constant, merciful, and dominating. Yes dominating. If the love of a mighty God does not dominate your life then an "oil check" might be in order. There is literally not a day that goes by that I am not reminded of His love for me that led Him to the Cross. I see it in my wife's smile, my son's hugs and kisses, a delicious cup of coffee from Mamma Carmen's, great conversations with brothers in Christ over that very cup of coffee. So folks be encouraged! No matter what kind of day you are having now, no matter what trial your experiencing now, Christ has been there, and He is with you NOW!

Grace & Peace,

WD